SHIT . Yea , shit is the title and the shit is ME . . .
Sh!T
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AnOtHer L!fe..
Another life...
Labels: LIFE
ThErE's @ Re@sOn BeH!nD EveRyTh!nG
Recently I'm just like a living skeleton.Sleep,eat,on9-ing,watching tv,text-ing and nothing more than that.That's my complete everyday routine.But a few days ago,there's unxpected incident happen to me.Heck.I try to forget what had happen that night.I try to throw all sadness and heartache in me since that night.But painess cant be thrown.I think it never will be cure too and it will bleed again someday.The incident wont end there.There still another episode of it that await's me in the future,and I sure for it.
Labels: LIFE
Me@n!ng Of L!fe
What is da meaning of life to you?Hmm this question sounds just an ordinary question for us but actually can anybody tell me what is da real meaning of life??
Labels: THOUGHT
D@rK S!De Of Me
Recently there r many things that happen to my life,it's all about myself...
Labels: LIFE
L!Fe'S GoEs oN
I not sure what is da perfect title for this post n I dont want to care bout it...
Here I goes with my another craps feelings.
Around these days,I think of many things...N it's giving me a new perspective of life..There r many things that happen to me "accidentally",well what I mean is it's not happen on purpose.Sometimes I wonder what is da feelings of death?Does it hurt n pain enough if compare wit a pain n suffering that I suffer since I in primary school.
"Gastric".This is not a big deal for everyone,gastric is just a common things nowadays.N I even feel nothing when I had it several years ago..But now,it's makes me scared,damn scared!!God,It's you who decides my fate n everyone's fate right?I dont ask a sympathy from anyone cuz of my gastric problems..But cuz of it I cant feel da feeling that I love most now..
Da feelings of tired.Tired of after a training..When everytimes I go to training,I look at everyone's..Well no one's know how I wish to b one of them..Now everytimes when I come back from training there's a nightmare waiting for me..I will rolling at my bed n my body is wet by sweat.I cant do anything,even cry nor shout..It's hurt!!!N I cant stand of it everytimes it happen on me but I can do nothing..da medicine that doc gives to me is useless,it's does not affect on me!!
I'm not hoping god takes away this pain from me but I just hopes that I have da strength to against it.Now,it's been two weeks I dont attend my tkd training n my life full wit miserable.Everythings turn upside down n makes me feel more sucks!!When everythimes I dont go for a training,some of my friends ask me bout it..Guys what can I tell all of you is just a lie!!Yea,maybe I'm wrong cuz lying all of you but it's not that what I ask for..I dont want to lie,but I cant tell da truth too...
I'm giving all da excuses to all of you cuz I dont want all of you think bout my problems..reality is,it's getting serious n I can feel it by myself..None of my parents o family know bout it..Dad,I dont want to goes on another surgery again..I dont want to lay on da bed n b a patience..Why cant I just b a normal human that can stand still n stay healthy like others??
In this world,humans thinks luxury,status n money is everything to through a life,but they have to bear in mind that there r some things that money can do nothing.It is health n family...
Labels: LIFE
!t's GoNn@ EnD
I really in mood to post something right now..
Well, I had nothing to share wit but I will try my best taking an alphabet n sew it into words..Huh!!Yea like da title "It's gonna end"..da holiday is gonna end...I thought I can change myself to da old me in this holiday..I try to gain spirit to face another challenging n boring life after this holiday..But I phailed!
I still here,n still without any changes..Still da old jac that lethargic n loves to stay in dark places alone..
This life is such an empty spaces for me,n da oly places that left for me is oly my room..a room that makes me feel warm n cozy..that's da oly places that I feel free n willing to share everything..
In this holiday I trying hard to change myself,I thought this holiday would be da perfect time to make myself escape from tiredness that I facing all this time,a moment to change myself to become a better one but da holiday gonna end soon n I cant gain any spirit but I turn to become more lethargic..I admit this holiday is such a damn boring holiday for me..In reality I should be happy cuz this damn moments gonna end soon but actually deep inside my hearts I dont hope to face da moments yet..
I still wanna be like now,da one that wake up when others taking lunch,da one that on9-ing when others making sweet dreams n da one that spend da whole day n times oly in my room...But no matter I like it or not it's gonna end soon...
In a reality this holiday will be a holiday that I cant forget most,No!!I should say I wont forget it till end of me cuz I lost something that I treasure in my life..Da one that I loves most n da one that can accept me no matter how or what I am..His da one who makes my laughter as sweet as candy,his da one who aways treating my wound when I'm hurt n his da one who aways by my side when I needed a companion...
I know everyone gonna lost something that they loves one day..N actualy I already know that one day I gonna lost him too..but I never know that I really cant lost him in my life...It's juz a pet..Yeah,just a pet..but his da one that I treasure after my family...N da one that light up my life...Da reason why I'm still here today..
Now his gone forever,but I still will live on cuz I will keep all da moments n every memories that I treasure wit him till da end of me...N I still will love him as da way I do,no matter how many years I keep on breathing..my love to him will never fade even once in a sec of time...
Labels: LIFE